People’s aspirations for a certain ideal appearance often transpire through the mistakes they make in the search for that ideal…It’s the tension between these imperfect attempt to create a certain image… — that evokes strong reactions, like aversion or adoration.
"What I’ve started I must finish. I’ve gone too far to turn back. Regardless of what may happen, I have to go forward."
— Michael Ende, The Neverending Story, Ch. IV: Ygramul the Many
Intimacy requires a certain level of vulnerability. It requires a certain level of you exposing your fragmented, contradictory self to someone else.
(noun) This wonderful, untranslatable German word describes the feeling of homesickness for a far away land, a place you have never visited. Do not confuse this with the word, wanderlust; Fernweh is much more profound; it is the feeling of an unsatisfied urge to escape and discover new places, almost a sort of sadness. You miss a place you have never experienced, as opposed to lusting over it or desiring it like wanderlust. You are seeking freedom and self-discovery, but not a particular home.